Recipes from the Heart

I have another 20 minutes left to myself before I have to wake up sleeping Riley and trek to preschool and get Dylan. After today he only has 4 days of school left and every time I think of it, I start to cry. Why do I cry? It's preschool. He's been going since February. It's the kind we pay for, it's not with the school district. Why do I cry? There will be more school. I will get to sleep in more. We'll have more spending money. Why on earth do I cry over him finishing up preschool? He's not even three years old yet. But yeah, I cry when I think of him finishing up.

On another note, I am no longer babysitting Olivia. Her grandma thought it best that her aunt start to watch her. You know, since her aunt only lives off of TANF and AFDC. I don't even know what AFDC is. I guess it's bitter sweet. It was a little bit of green in my pocket and someone for Dylan to play with, but to be honest, that girl was a terrible brat and was teaching my Dylan bad things. I got a "look" when I brought up to grandma how she was going around saying (and thus teaching Dylan) "God dangit." Now I don't know how other people feel about THEIR two year old children basically cursing, but I don't like it or want it or appreciate someone teaching it to Dylan. And I am not oblivious to the fact that kids eventually start to cuss and that Blaze probably says "holy crap" at school, but not at 2 years old.

So now with no Olivia I am again interested in and wanting a job. Yep, a j-o-b. I haven't worked-worked since I was 6 months pregnant with Dylan. *complications with preterm labor there* Now I have a degree though and just really want to use it. I don't want to forget everything I learned either! I've been home with Riley for 6 months so far and wouldn't feel bad to go back to work now. I guess it's easier with the 2nd kid. I would at least like part time. It would be nice to do 2nd shift PT so no childcare would be needed, but there aren't a lot of doctors' offices open during 2nd shift... my best bet is an immediate care like I did my clinicals at- which there is one in town! But I have found it SOOO hard to find a job right now, especially being right out of school with zip previous experience aside from clinicals. How is someone suppose to get experience without a job to start with? I have TONS of customer service experience (every job I've ever had involves it) so I keep highlighting that trait in my cover letters and such.

I've got an awesomely designed resume (maybe the content sucks, but can't help that now), a great cover letter that I tweak for each job, and a 3.7 GPA and am not THAT picky, aside from being PRN, Float, or working in Carmel. Grrr.


And a note about Mother's Day to finish up. My kids are awesome as is, and most of them are too young to do Mother's Day-type things... but Blaze always blows my mind and makes tear up when he makes his gift at school (that they do every year) and comes home and gives it to me. Me. Not his mom, but me. I mean, I know I am the one raising him and worrying about him and all that, but when he actually does something like that and doesn't have a SINGLE thing for his mom (which kinda makes me feel bad... ) I feel so awesome and loved. So this year I got a cookbook! It's titled "Recipes from the Heart" and has his picture on it and is laminated and has a little saying inside the cover. ♥  So. I helped him scrounge together a homemade card for his mom.

I got a cookbook though.